This monstrosity I was suckered into is -- I kid you not -- called the "Techno Gears Marble Mania Extreme" and the marble elevator is, yes, motorized. It has over 330 pieces!

My fingers are numb.

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...just not a professional cook. I need boxes with pretty picture instructions and big words.

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Ol' Stompin' Grounds

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inside: iPods and pads, laptops, cellphones. distraction.
devotion, dedication, dereliction,
some to bleachers and beer, some
to watercooler blasphemy. some to psychic
advice under pseudonyms. some to their last
day, unknowingly;

the psychic might have helped.

shared minutes in collective solitude, we have
nothing in common but destination and mode.

We are all the same.

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Faced with a blank screen, I'm finding it excruciating to choose a topic. I can't ask the internet for topics, because then I'm admitting to the world that my topic-bin is not full, overflowing, ever-rejuvenated. I think there might be some sort of topic shortage in my neighborhood.

Except that other people have topics. So it must be something with me. Or maybe my brain is on vacation. When your brain is as overactive as mine is (you do NOT want to hear my inner monologue), you find that sometimes you just can't get it to come back from whatever adventure it's on.

When I was a kid, the adventures were mostly about being James Bond or a ninja. As a kid, I had all kinds of freedom to let my body act out whatever it was that I was imagining -- the halls of my house would become the warehouse where the evil Dr. No had stashed his doomsday device and I was sneaking through the halls dispatching bad guys with perfectly-timed kicks and punches. My cat, Smokey, was my 'Q', giving me the ultimate spy gear: and not just the stingy two or three toys from a Bond movie, either.

I had laser watches and shuriken business cards and an Aston Martin ( which I had to use my feet to move since it was really my orange-and-yellow fisher-price clown car, but that was part of the gadgetry since it was wayyyy more precise than just a gas-and-brake pedal ) and a taser pen and a jet pack. Because sneaking through the halls of the house wasn't nearly as fun as running full-bore.

I had dialogue, too. Showdown talk, like "nice shark tank."

As an adult, I just don't say "nice shark tank" enough.

But now, I find myself mentally acting out conversations I expect to have. I take both sides, imagining what my boss or coworker or someone would say to me and brilliantly defending my points. And then I go in and the conversations never actually happen and I fumble over my, "uh, okay." Because I am slick like that.

So if you see me walking, distracted by an internal dialogue, you know that either I'm having an intense debate where I say all the right things, or I'm sneaking through SPECTRE's latest doomsday device with my shuriken business cards.

It's okay. It's my imagination, so I almost always win.

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What bittersweetness.

I had no idea what to expect, y'know, since I'm just to the side of the whole blogging universe. I don't consider myself a blogger; I'm just a guy who writes code for a living and has kids and happens to be married to someone who discovered that her blog was a gateway to discovering what she wanted to do with her life. But I do have a blog, and I do write in it, from time to time. So maybe that was enough to find friends or at least people to hang with while my wife did her thing. And if nothing else, I was in NYC, where the challenge is picking which thing to do. Right? So I could go to this blogging conference and have a good time, right?

Little did I know that among the thousands of attendees were real people whom I would be honored to call my friends. I should rephrase -- I knew they were real, I just didn't know they would be so warm and kind to me, inviting and joking and laughing with me, sharing some moments of their whirlwind tour of the blogosphere with me. To all of you, and you know who you are, thank you, because you remind me that I'm not just a nerd. I had a Theatre minor, for God's sake, I love connecting with people and I love stories.

The last five years have been a tornado of their own, getting married, moving, more kids, working, trying to get some sleep. I feel like I've been cocooned, transforming my family from a concept to a reality, watching as they all sprout wings and fly; all attention inward, nourishing them. Now, as their colors flourish and the shell gets brittle, I find myself rediscovering the world around me, dusting off old interests and welcoming new friends.

I'm back now. Full circle. Swept up into the atmosphere, deposited home. Thrilled to know all of you, missing you all being a txt away.

What bittersweetness.

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